don't know why), thanks for the cards, envy is the greatest flattery,
albeit a pretty miserable one for the envious :( sigh.
quite sadly, my body can't take the daily beatings of sinful (oily and
fried, mostly) food plus late nights that extend up to 5am, and rudely
told me to stop indulging in my guilty pleasures (eating and
socialising till too late), by means of a formidable viral attack on
my sinuses (i.e. i came down with a bad flu) and thus i was not in the
state to while my time away in a five star hotel room and exploit its
facilities FOR FREE, courtesy of TT (quite obvious who TT is haha),
whose incredible contest-winning skills (radio contests) landed her a
free one night stay at MARINA MANDARIN HOTEL >.<
ok i'll stop my random throwing in of words which makes my writing
stylistically rojak. anyway, glutton's bay's food look good but ex,
save for my hor fun which was quite the inverse. yea, can't really
have so much good food, now that i'm getting quite sick, i think i may
have to forgo tomorrow's RV thing BLAH.
anyways, thanks TT for being so caring today (ENO!) and everyone else
whom i met, they're all so friendly and sweet and sociable haha! made
1 more new friend today!
ARGH I THINK MY SECRET SANTA'S PRESENT IS IN THE HOTEL ROOM FRIDGE.
i hope all the troubles my friends have will be settled soon, in some
way or another... i realise again i think quite simply (i.e.
simple-minded)
my gemini mood kicks in as i feel quite depressed after hearing about
some things, but my spirits are lifted up a little as i sang a song
after getting out of the cab (to quote my p3 chinese teacher, people
who never sing will go crazy)
i really wonder why i treat and view things so differently from other
people... well, at least the ones im closer to. i strip down more than
others (figuratively!), maybe because i trust people more easily
(thinking that telling them my stuff won't harm me nor others, and
it's true so far), but sometimes i'm quite self-conscious about what i
tell the other person... afraid of repurcussions, or the knowledge
(self-assured??) that it won't help if i tell.
like, today i'm quite inhibited (compared to during chorale party) it
showed during zong ji mi ma... heh.
maybe after my own experiences, i've come to realise (i think others
know this too, but never thought about it directly) that family ties
are still the most unbreakable, plus it's quite self-mending.
will pain arising from love last forever? :( if so, how much does it
affect you/does it have to affect you too badly? i like living in the
present, thank you, but it's impossible to forget all the stupid
things i or other people have done.
i've come to take things as they come, friendships can be maintained
if you try! today's technology is sufficient enough to be able to keep
in touch with others, explore more options! and it's also a matter of
what you want the friendship to be, i guess. to each their own la. but
the world is so big, people come and go, you're bound to meet another
wonderful buddy sometime later in life, i suppose? well, the
friendship is probably less close than the ones you melded during your
school life, but (hopefully) the thinner threads are still sufficient
to get you by :)
i'm not saying friends are dispensable! it's just that circumstances
are such that people may need to stay away from each other, keep the
sweet memories and it'll comfort you when you need it.
why you all make things hard for yourself aiyo. oops that was quite
insensitive, but hey, take a step back and observe things as a
bystander, so you'll get a wider view.
i'm a hypocrite sometimes, yea yea.
i'm only 18 years old and there's still 70 years ahead of me, yet i'm
so cynical wow. how am i going to live through my life HAHA! no la
please, i'm not dying anytime soon of emotional or physical burden! i
love my food and friends and family and i realise everything i love
starts with an F heh!
oh wait, there's still music and dancing, they're the best
burden-relievers ever! (food's harder for me because most of the food
i taste is of similar standard, so that equals no effect)
ooh i'm learning how to blog cryptically! and i'll slide into
obscurity because i'm misunderstood or un-understood. cryptic people
take note heh!
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