i love myself for being a fantastic last-minute worker!

AND, for maintaining a social life in the midst of the bustle. (i'm obviously not working to 100% but i hope it's enough.)

*tired but happy grin* :]

AND! i must comment!

i'm damn glad my dad lectures at sp! i have a second source of architecture books HAHAHAHA.

ev's UBER RARE when surfaces start to move is a BORROWABLE item there XD *maybe i shouldn't announce this hehe*

too bad i think the selection is slightly less. tried to find stuff for my (EURGH) history essay. can't find much stuff on more detailed subjects.

ok, will travel to bugis to snap (SIGH) more photos for the assignment and hopefully dig up information.

week 11/13!

TAHAN!!! lol.

nowadays i don't regret sleeping 8 hours a day. don't feel like rushing to complete work. screws up your health real bad.

but every time i get a new set of deadlines i feel it's impossible to be done. and yet, i manage (almost all the time). amazing how i cope with this.

today, i was mentioned for a supposedly good thing in front of the entire batch (OMG.) but it had to be that the photos presented to the world were my inferior ones. why didn't i change the format of the better sketches to jpeg gah. hope my friends don't remember me for bad artistic sense. because i don't think i have a very bad sense of judgement.

some music

i find the transition not very convincing, although mixing the two songs together is quite nice.

i really like the stage design.



i like the melody and arrangement, even if i don't understand the lyrics one bit, haha.



VERY NICE!!!



the verse is so beautiful.



collaboration with an orchestra!!! wow.



big band! her brother's a very good singer.

***

didn't sleep on sunday night, and endured 6.5 hours of crit haha :P but it's all worth it! suddenly i feel school life is better again, or at least for a short while, heh.

i should spend less time on the design module for now, really. i'm going to die for my other modules. i feel lousy about my too-quickly drawn sketches for submission for another module. but it's supposed to be '5 minute sketches' and so i don't understand how everyone was shading and polishing every one of the so-called sketches. unfair. (and i observed id people draw WAY better than aki people on average.)

the chinese eating house beside fong seng is actually quite good, if more expensive. but it's worth it. the beef noodles are yum, and the milk tea has a mild, sweet taste. went there for 2 or 3 consecutive nights recently :) i love drinking soup.

maybe music is my real calling.

but this is quite fun too, come to think of it, if frustrating at times when you don't get what you want (in time).

student life.

i can't write essays to save my life!

i take like, god knows how long just to research. and in the mean time i've confused myself with my own research question and hypothesis.

i just keep thinking, "hm but if i write this, won't this not really answer the question? but to discuss the effects of this and that will take me beyond what i'm capable of doing (probably)... must i compare between the two persons, and write about their significance? although my essay question does not require it? in which case my essay question is not good enough for this assignment?" etc.

to compensate for my retardations, i continue looking for things to lift from books. I probably have enough words to fill my 1000-word essay and more HAHA. have i really found too many quotes...? i just keep thinking, the amount of information i have is not enough, not enough...

never mind all these hiccups, i still have (technically, not taking into account lessons) 2 full days to churn it out.

i'm really really hoping the upcoming workshop (series of work to do for the design module) will take MUCH less time than the previous one. then i can get some rest (ha. who am i trying to kid =p)

and, i will make it a point to run on tuesdays and fridays when i have no classes!!!! shit, ran for just 10minutes x 2 times and my thighs are as sore as if i did a 10km run. tsk.

***

and when i was walking home earlier, i was thinking to myself, i don't feel like a grown up at all. but, i'm already 21! and i had always thought, when i was younger, that people at 21 years old are really mature and can take care of themselves. i guess not. and i'm thinking (fearing?) i'll never be. maybe it'll change after student life ends, i go out to work and live alone (not happening in the near future).

ok, off to print out past year papers.

i want a hiatus

1. just now my archi batch had a small mooncake festival party, and i tried to sing a duet for a performance.

it was BAD. partly because i'm still down with flu+phlegm so bad that on monday my my range was limited, from lowlowE to lowB (when i can usually reach a G above middleC on normal days). and mostly because i totally suck at singing SIGH. and guess what song i sang (haha). the same song i sang with another group of friends for a birthday party lol. still can screw up.

then, my ex-studio mate had his glorious 4 minutes of fame with his lovely guitar strumming and - i can't remember the song - singing.

i guess the average person can't sing nicely at all. but, i don't want to be just average.

i don't feel very achieving. in fact, very UNDER achieving.

i really think, if i were not under any social pressure to conform and live up to expectations, i would have enrolled in a music college/conservatory/even nafa or lasalle. definitely. not that i hate what i'm doing, but i guess music is my calling but it won't get me anywhere because i'm not talented or hardworking enough for it. i think (visual) design is pretty cool, hence where i am today. but!

to prove to myself i'm not so bad at this, i recorded my voice (singing) on the way home, and the moment i reached home, i turned on this computer and tried to improvise kelvin tan's i love you (which is a translated cover of ozaki yutaka's big hit in the 80s.).

how i wish i could post it up here, but sorry, QC failed.

a voice to kill is high on my covet list. and then, the ability to improvise (actually i could learn myself but i don't know where to start) and composing and arranging and producing. wow.

maybe i can do a postgraduate in music? :) but, is the late-20s too late to start a career in music? not classical music, by the way.

2. i suddenly have a cool idea! i want to go to hong kong for exchange!! the university there is quite good, and i can learn cantonese! (like, how would german be useful to me in my daily life, seriously.) okok, set. i will go learn cantonese during the holidays, at the cantonese clan in singapore (i forgot its name. but it isn't as famous as the hokkien huay kuan here).

3. i desperately need a book detailing how hayao miyazaki created his films. if you do have one, please let me know! it's for my report. (i think i'd better use another designer, for my 2nd choice, in the syllabus for research, to save studying time.)

4. i really don't like it that there is no feedback given about our progress [EDIT: not 'no feedback', but a sense of comparison - how each student's design stack up against each other, and like, if we are way offtrack from the intended learning outcome - OK that had been done before but we're usually confounded.]. this is after six weeks of school. i mean, i guess we can judge for ourselves what we are, but often times we need an objective third party to assess us. especially for art-based subjects. before my music teacher told me i had problems with phrasing and articulating the strong beats, i really had NO idea i was playing things wrong.

5. ok. must sleep. a lot of work that had better be done by the weekend, and -sigh- MUG.

OMG!!!!!! (yi han see this)

OMG OMG OMG!!!

I WILL BUY AN NDS JUST TO PLAY THIS GAME!!!

STUDIO GHIBLI ANIMATION IS GORGEOUS!!!

AND JOE HISAISHI'S MUSIC IS WOW!!!

oh wait. nds plays 8-bit midi music, right? ):

sigh

i just read my previous post and realise, i'm really such a b****! karma will get back at me, i'm sure :x ok, will try to think kinder thoughts about other people from now.

i have a LOT of work to do this week, it's SO not a break. but i'm still glad for it, it means i don't have to go without sleep!

anyway, today's a wonderful day! hung out with some ex-jc mates (: their company is really so nice. being pretty honest and quite unrestrained with each other (not that i don't behave as myself with others, but...)

played our (their) favourite arcade games HAHA. ah, we are so funny together.

watched time traveller's wife with them. at first i didn't get the point of the show, as the show didn't seem to have a strong plot (strong conflict) at the start, apart from the protagonist having this (dis)ability. didn't think the ability would be causing so much problems. and, the entire movie is so sad, from beginning to end. my friend BAWLED beside me at the ending - couldn't control the emotions further - and i got slightly alarmed, heh.

but it was really heart-wrenching. i almost cried at the scene when the guy went back in time and met his mom, but couldn't be intimate with mom because mom couldn't recognise the 30+ year old man. then, he had to leave abruptly.

apparently the book is much better than this. but, i don't understand why movie adaptations must stick 95% to the original. this movie is good. although i think slightly more intellectual exploration of the concept of time-space experience (omg architecture is affecting me) and relationships could be nice. nonetheless, it was so touching and not the least bit cliche (although i could guess why he was ******SPOILER****** shot.)

4.5/5!

the oddities of enrollment in...

... a course which claims to be mentally intensive, and yet! responses to the effect of 'i find this interesting (full stop)' is heard almost invariably after the question of what one thinks has been asked.

i'm starting to have a slightly negative impression of my batch mates! why can't they be more socially responsible, tsk.

in the course of 3 days, the entire 3rd storey got converted into a megalopolis of spray paints, wood blocks and other unwanted remnants of their projects. how can people be so insensitive as to lay their work all over a staircase landing and leave the unwanted sheets of newspaper used to cover the ground for spray painting (which is not allowed)? at the very least, cover the floor adequately so that no paint gets onto the floor, so as to minimise dirtying, right?

and yet, the indecent stains were left there despite nice reminders to clear the mess. which finally got cleared after tutors blew their tops. so dumb, right. and i had thought architects(-to-be) have to be very sensitive towards the surroundings and people, isn't that an important trait.

anyway, today was quite sucky. felt i wasted my time rushing to finish the project, when the final result was abominable. and when i sensed it after the initial materialisation. i feel slightly, errrr.

this is so sour...

and, i wonder why am i so daft, or too intelligent to meet the demands of design. maybe a lot of my friends get it too. it's like, you spend so damn long thinking of the solution to your design, and you brainstormed for so many ideas and you threw most of them away, thinking they are too kitsch or simplistic. and then, some fellow scores a goal with a concept similar to your discarded trash.

and i'm sure most, if not all, of the white lanterns submitted for the lantern design competition will receive low scores there. hello, white in chinese culture means something and you don't know, you ching-chong. (i mean, of course the tutors know, but an overwhelming number of entries were made with white paper. oh gosh. and come to think of it, one of the - literally - expensive lantern sculptures i saw are rectangular coffins. hah.)

which makes my group's one better. but. (OH WELL.)

okays, end of bitchfest. i've so much to do tomorrow, alright till then!