exams

why is the average person under achieving???

people aren't very anxious about their grades or exams, or are fine if they don't do well.

one day, my resolve will be corroded by all these people.

am i hanging out with the wrong people? please, let there be (over)achievers who can push me along.

i don't want to go to school now.

damn waste of time. first, there's travelling. and then, there's...

need to change study plans and strategies!

(hm. will have to start studying, part rote-learning, for the module on design ideas NOW.)

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OTHER NEWS: SHE'S TOURING USA AND UK IN 2010 OH MY GAAAAWD!

SOMEBODY ALERT ME SHOULD SHE COME TO SINGAPORE! *drools*

"social contract"

i find myself in a silly fix i made for myself.

a hell lot of people are asking me to study with them, especially for structural systems (because i made myself out to be a physics-god, when i'm not really one.) and every time i do so, i end up being the free-of-charge tutor and my self-study time is very disrupted! at this rate i can't finish studying for the exams in time.

but, i ought to help friends, right. and i kinda like (most of) their company. and even if i were selfish, i would still help them because it'll be to my benefit that i have more friends, less enemies.

i feel like holing myself in school, but going to school is unavoidable 'cause i need to clear my stuff from studio!

HOW?????????

enjoyment

things i've done since thursday:

gone out every day to dinner and pubs...

... singing my lungs out...

... getting high on diluted beer (i'm a loser)...

night life in the city is so... refreshingly good. beautiful lights and fun people to hang out with. what have i been missing?

maybe i'm enjoying myself too soon, but i'm loving life :)

excited to be busy this december holidays!!

i love myself for being a fantastic last-minute worker!

AND, for maintaining a social life in the midst of the bustle. (i'm obviously not working to 100% but i hope it's enough.)

*tired but happy grin* :]

AND! i must comment!

i'm damn glad my dad lectures at sp! i have a second source of architecture books HAHAHAHA.

ev's UBER RARE when surfaces start to move is a BORROWABLE item there XD *maybe i shouldn't announce this hehe*

too bad i think the selection is slightly less. tried to find stuff for my (EURGH) history essay. can't find much stuff on more detailed subjects.

ok, will travel to bugis to snap (SIGH) more photos for the assignment and hopefully dig up information.

week 11/13!

TAHAN!!! lol.

nowadays i don't regret sleeping 8 hours a day. don't feel like rushing to complete work. screws up your health real bad.

but every time i get a new set of deadlines i feel it's impossible to be done. and yet, i manage (almost all the time). amazing how i cope with this.

today, i was mentioned for a supposedly good thing in front of the entire batch (OMG.) but it had to be that the photos presented to the world were my inferior ones. why didn't i change the format of the better sketches to jpeg gah. hope my friends don't remember me for bad artistic sense. because i don't think i have a very bad sense of judgement.

some music

i find the transition not very convincing, although mixing the two songs together is quite nice.

i really like the stage design.



i like the melody and arrangement, even if i don't understand the lyrics one bit, haha.



VERY NICE!!!



the verse is so beautiful.



collaboration with an orchestra!!! wow.



big band! her brother's a very good singer.

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didn't sleep on sunday night, and endured 6.5 hours of crit haha :P but it's all worth it! suddenly i feel school life is better again, or at least for a short while, heh.

i should spend less time on the design module for now, really. i'm going to die for my other modules. i feel lousy about my too-quickly drawn sketches for submission for another module. but it's supposed to be '5 minute sketches' and so i don't understand how everyone was shading and polishing every one of the so-called sketches. unfair. (and i observed id people draw WAY better than aki people on average.)

the chinese eating house beside fong seng is actually quite good, if more expensive. but it's worth it. the beef noodles are yum, and the milk tea has a mild, sweet taste. went there for 2 or 3 consecutive nights recently :) i love drinking soup.

maybe music is my real calling.

but this is quite fun too, come to think of it, if frustrating at times when you don't get what you want (in time).

student life.

i can't write essays to save my life!

i take like, god knows how long just to research. and in the mean time i've confused myself with my own research question and hypothesis.

i just keep thinking, "hm but if i write this, won't this not really answer the question? but to discuss the effects of this and that will take me beyond what i'm capable of doing (probably)... must i compare between the two persons, and write about their significance? although my essay question does not require it? in which case my essay question is not good enough for this assignment?" etc.

to compensate for my retardations, i continue looking for things to lift from books. I probably have enough words to fill my 1000-word essay and more HAHA. have i really found too many quotes...? i just keep thinking, the amount of information i have is not enough, not enough...

never mind all these hiccups, i still have (technically, not taking into account lessons) 2 full days to churn it out.

i'm really really hoping the upcoming workshop (series of work to do for the design module) will take MUCH less time than the previous one. then i can get some rest (ha. who am i trying to kid =p)

and, i will make it a point to run on tuesdays and fridays when i have no classes!!!! shit, ran for just 10minutes x 2 times and my thighs are as sore as if i did a 10km run. tsk.

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and when i was walking home earlier, i was thinking to myself, i don't feel like a grown up at all. but, i'm already 21! and i had always thought, when i was younger, that people at 21 years old are really mature and can take care of themselves. i guess not. and i'm thinking (fearing?) i'll never be. maybe it'll change after student life ends, i go out to work and live alone (not happening in the near future).

ok, off to print out past year papers.