average reader has for reading my blog haha* BUT, at least please read
the very last paragraph lest you get a stilted impression of me haha!
i think the people close to me can attest to the last paragprah :)
my christmas wish for this year is to sort out my life! what do i
really want, how to get towards it. future job, hobbies/interests,
social life blah blah blah...
watched 'click' at a fren's place; click is abt this guy who got a
remote control that could fast forward or review the things he did in
the past, but the catch was that the remote will automatically preset
to the user's life preferences and automatically fastforward your life
based on those preferences, so the protagonist basically got his life
fastforwarded really fast to the end of his life, evantually, because
a lot of his life was spent arguing with his wife, or slogging hard to
get promoted, or being sick (all of which he didn't want and thus
manually fastfwded before). i think there's this similar chinese story
right? about this guy who was given a spool of magical golden thread
by a deity, who told him that by unrolling the thread, he can
fastforward his life (without experiencing anything, so it's like
being transported to the future), just like in the movie click.
anyway, to cut everything short, the movie was trying to say that one
should treasure the relationships more than work + going through the
process sometimes is a good thing (like the hilarious take on the guy
having, erm, quick sex in 1 minute with his wife) heh! and of course,
don't anyhow make stupid decisions (he got the remote control as a
free gift from the angel of death <-- not exactly a devil, he was just
being objective...
ok back the the christmas wish, woah must choose my path carefully
can?! i keep changing my minds whenever i see an attractively-written
article about this or that, i sometimes do wish i have that crystal
ball or the remote control or the spool of thread, too bad those can't
be rewinded, else everything's going to be perfect haha! but at least
i know i want to be a teacher in the end, hopefully physics la! being
a music teacher, school or private tutor or otherwise, is a bit sucky
i think because you gotta devise a proper schedule and structure for
the lesson plans, from scratch. not easy, you know, especially when
there's so much knowledge that it forms a web, an entangled + complex
one, that you don't know where to start :|
lol if i do want to become a music teacher then things will be like
quite clear cut lol! compose music when young, get some fame + cash,
then when old retire as music teacher TADA quite a fulfilling life
right? don't even know whether music is what i want, becuase i'm not
this enthusiast unlike so many of my peers who can recognise mahler,
wagner, beethoven, tchaikovsky's symphonies + all sorts of piano works
(all the famous ones + some of the lesser known ones) AND they even
check up on what world famous pianists/violinists/orchestras play and
review them and fuss over the recordings like they're so cool + hip +
trendy. actually, the good recordings ARE gosu and cool, in a
nerdy-classical sort of way HAHA.
but anw, the thing is that they're actually enthusiastic about music
(classical) whereas i'm ambivalent about it. and don't talk about
PRACTICAL/PERFORMANCE lol! i think i'm literally years behind them in
terms of how much i practised. dang if i DID practise PROPERLY and
FREQUENTLY enough i think i CAN rival my friends HAHA. SIGH.
well, i've tried to do something about music. analysed a few pop music
songs (not STRUCTURE *hand gestures reminiscent of somebody HAHA*) but
the coherence achieved through using similar chords/riffs/patterns and
intstruments in intro, verse, chorus, bridge, out-tro, and tried to
recreate the track, but just failed because i don't know what the
stupid instruments are ARGH!
OK. maybe i go study some hard science/engineering in university, and
make my extra curricular activity = enrichment lessons here and there!
there's so much to learn, like formal dinner etiquette,
ballroom/hiphop/classical/contemporary dancing, pop singing, music
arrangement + composition, painting/drawing, photography, etc etc.
basically all the cool skills la... haha! then hor, at the same time
stay fit and get the muscular-enough-so-that-i-don't-look-scrawny look
and please i'm not iron mary, i want to have good hand-eye/foot-eye
coordination and therefore i must participate in some sort of sport...
skiing sounds cool! be it on snow or on the sea! no team sports for
me, too pressurising. and my lack of 3D vision (squint + lazy eye)
renders me useless when it comes to ball/racquet games. or maybe i'm
blaming everything on my condition when it isn't so haha.
get all that and add on being Mr Nice Guy (high EQ) and all that, you
get Mr Clifford-the-perfect Guy. or at least wayyyy closer to what i
would like to be...
dream on la clifford! sitting at the computer blogging about this
won't make you accomplish any of the above la! come on, move it!
neh never mind my dreams first, i want my sleep...
PS: i'm not always lazy! i can be SUPER hardworking, like during
pre-concert preparation, or exam preparation, or even my (quite
uneventful) library CIP stint!
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