my first religious christmas (if my memory isn't wrong)

why am i awake during such an unearthly hour? well, i just came home
from a midnight church service :)

i'm actually a free-thinker, but i usually don't refuse invitations
from friends to attend church services/sessions (have yet to be asked
to go to a temple/other religion's activities, though) i initially
felt really really reluctant to go for this service, especially
because it's held at 11am and it's at bukit timah, off farrer
road/coronation road... accessibility isn't that great and all that...
BUT the moment i went into the hall where everyone was gathered at
(thanks xx and sam for choping a nice seat!) i knew this service was
going to be good haha!

i kind of prefer the solemn, serious kind of services and this was
really pleasant, ok, more than pleasant! apart from a few, erm, sour
notes from the big string instrument (haha! poor thing), everything
else went smoothly and gracefully, and the scent of incense is quite
calming and serene... and i could sing a couple of the programmed
songs for once haha ('cause they're popular xmas songs/hymns)! oh well
to each their own la...

thanks kwan rui for inviting me :D and xx + sam for accompanying me to
the service so i won't be standing alone in the crowd

i thought my xmas was to be, mentally draining and sad, yea the SNIFF
thing, amongst others... but the service made me feel more peaceful...
hm perhaps i should seriously consider going for religious
services/sessions regularly...

somewhat related to this, i think your surroundings influence you so
greatly! hence, i must 'immerse' myself in goody-two-shoes people, i
must remove all my xin1 mo2!!! really lor, i'm becoming worse every
day/year, TSK TSK

(i realise - again - it's sad to know that one's actions/deeds of good
will are unappreciated and, even worse, frowned upon/taken negatively
by the recipient. this time i'm the sad one haha) anyway i WAS sad
before the xmas service, now my heart is so much more peaceful yep.

thanks for the 3 hr telephone call HAHA! nothing beats having somebody
else whom you can talk with freely on the same level

(i'm expecting a terrible headache when i wake up haha)