through emailing my post to blogger.com, which i think, signed me out
after my 30 mins of supposed inactivity because i was typing my BLOG
into the window?! and now i can't open any blogger page, much less
sign in*
i dunno, but when i'm in a 'sian' mood, it's like the perfect time to
play all sorts of (trashy) eurodance songs to pep myself up haha!
*plays 'hung up' mentally*
maybe i'm sian because i'm reeling from
*Suddenly-No-Interaction-with-Friends* syndrome (ok not totally no
interaction, but interaction has greatly decreased since i last saw my
friends, plus now they're all over the world = uncontactable, unless
you want to spend more $$ calling them)
anyway, more about this SNIFF syndrome (the extra F is there to
complete the word) it's this 'drained' feeling you get when you club
or go out too much during a short period of time, then you stay and
home and stone in front of the computer hoping to find some sort of
comfort in the form of highly-evolved-yet-inadequate interaction with
friends (known as instant conversations, through MSN or ICQ or AOL or
whatevernot you use) through the mambo-jambo network and the
cathode-ray tube which we know as the monitor (ok some of you have
plasma screen - congrats for being ahead of the
technological-acquiring race haha... just kidding... no sarcastic
intentions here, just anyhow saying things)
yea so you know i don't really like technology, because i can't fully
harness or understand it, plus it disappoints me on occasion (the
desktop gets the ominous BLUE SCREEN for at least 3 times when booting
up before everything goes steadily) argh.
anyway, just recounting the number of times i get the SNIFF... urm,
it's real bad after performing in concerts, you'll just miss the
people whom stick around with you almost everyday for the previous
weeks. it's also terrible after big events, like parties and
gatherings (strangely SNIFF didn't hit me hard after prom)
why do we get the SNIFF? even when we know, in our heads, we'll get to
see our dear friends again in the near future (point of information:
my SNIFF now is somewhat minor as compared to the post-concert and
post-trip ones URGH!) but we LOVE them too much to not have them
around with you for at least 1/3 of a day or something... maybe it's
the conditioned habit thing to want things to be "normal", after being
exposed to friends for so long...
but things can't always stay "normal" (or rather, unchanged, to be
more accurate). friends come and go, you can request, but will
everyone readily give (be it becuase of fear of possible repecussions,
or due to obligations, or pity, or doing what one feels as right - a
subset of obligations in a way, i suppose)? no la, don't be so
demanding of people, let them live the lives they would most like, if
they'll be happier that way. they didn't mean to harm you, anyways,
and you could be causing them unhappiness should you insist of
continuing things haha...
*note: this are just random musings... no references to particular
persons or events*
so weird right, there's little in life that's permanent plus truly
memorable and treasured forever... but i'm still hopeful!!! :D
oh crap, i kinda got carried away by this SNIFF thingy!!
i want to blog about how time passes by so quickly, and i ended up
talking about friendships again (which takes up quite a bit of my
brain RAM throughout the day, and erm, people with SNIFF find time
passes by SLOWLY not FAST-LY)
well actually it's FAST when you look at a long period of time (from
end of my A levels till today, for instance. that's ONE FREAKING
MONTH!) but it's SLOW if you want to count every minute of your day
(like, i thought it's already 2 hours since i started up the macbook -
far more RELIANT than the other comp ER HMM *clears throat* however,
the macbook is new la, we'll see how well it survives my family's
heavy usage)
sad to say, i am going to fail most of my planned activities (as in,
fail to carry them out) esp all the self improvement ones in the areas
of art + music... but i'm starting to get a tan :D thanks to the sun
which finally showed itself yesterday! i need more sun, please! you
make me HAPPY and OPTIMISTIC!
there better be sun throughout pre xmas, xmas and post xmas, so my
mind won't wander off into introspective things like friendships and
SNIFF and my past and future... but i'm still somewhat happy that my
life isn't as complicated as the lives of other people :S am i that
simple-minded? haha!
looking forward to more gatherings haha! see you there!
*who reads my blog arh? appear now! anw, congrats for reading this
far, i know i'm quite boring, but you probably got too much time to
spare so congrats again haha! make good use of your time hor!*
ok this is the end of one of my longest posts. phew!
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