inadvertent

i slept at 3+am last night and woke up at 7.30am today. and i have not slept yet until now! 

and i'm still somewhat awake! amazing. wow.

i'm beginning to adapt myself to my future sleep pattern, without even trying to!

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found out many hours ago an nsf officer just died from an accident. he was from the bmt company next to mine, so he was under some of my friends. i don't know him, by the way.

can you imagine, a life, with a soul brimming with the desire to be freed from 2 years of being shackled, with aspirations and dreams and the expectation of living til 80 years, smattered in a mere hour. 

what was he thinking during the last moments.

his family. loved ones. his friends. his dreams, perhaps. struggling to live for everything.

the third death of someone somewhat related to me that has affected me personally (mj's not included). all in less than a year.

it's totally unfair! he's too young, and have many people who knew him.

i wish the grieving the strength to carry on and come to terms with their loss...