student life.

i can't write essays to save my life!

i take like, god knows how long just to research. and in the mean time i've confused myself with my own research question and hypothesis.

i just keep thinking, "hm but if i write this, won't this not really answer the question? but to discuss the effects of this and that will take me beyond what i'm capable of doing (probably)... must i compare between the two persons, and write about their significance? although my essay question does not require it? in which case my essay question is not good enough for this assignment?" etc.

to compensate for my retardations, i continue looking for things to lift from books. I probably have enough words to fill my 1000-word essay and more HAHA. have i really found too many quotes...? i just keep thinking, the amount of information i have is not enough, not enough...

never mind all these hiccups, i still have (technically, not taking into account lessons) 2 full days to churn it out.

i'm really really hoping the upcoming workshop (series of work to do for the design module) will take MUCH less time than the previous one. then i can get some rest (ha. who am i trying to kid =p)

and, i will make it a point to run on tuesdays and fridays when i have no classes!!!! shit, ran for just 10minutes x 2 times and my thighs are as sore as if i did a 10km run. tsk.

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and when i was walking home earlier, i was thinking to myself, i don't feel like a grown up at all. but, i'm already 21! and i had always thought, when i was younger, that people at 21 years old are really mature and can take care of themselves. i guess not. and i'm thinking (fearing?) i'll never be. maybe it'll change after student life ends, i go out to work and live alone (not happening in the near future).

ok, off to print out past year papers.