my "xuantasy"

http://blog.sina.com.cn/xuantasy

lol... hm stumbled on this blog while reading an online forum :D so funny, since when was i this ga-ga over celebrities (apart from hikki)...

oh i realised something about myself, very surprising this hasn't crossed my mind properly before till now! i'm putting too much pressure on myself to excel in everything possible, that i'm not enjoying my life at all...

everything! from my image, my friendships, my health, my time management...

so i (finally) understand what people mean when they say "singaporean students are overly pressurised to achieve". can you imagine, i never thought of it this way? i always think i'm lacking of so many things: perserverence, manliness (er, lol?), attractiveness, cool attitude etc.

ahhhh. what's wrong with me ah. i shouldn't keep thinking of being "the best i can be", should i?

and then when people praise me for whatever i'm good at, i would think about myself holistically and conclude i'm still "not there yet". yet, how i wish i could live the life of so many of my friends. many of them (seem) more content with their lives than i am with my own lol.

SO!

from now on, i will STOP thinking about what i'm going to achieve with my short life, and focus on what i WANT TO DO, because I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!!!

tomorrow, here's my plan!

ENJOY myself while running or swimming (depends on the weather), then i might go out to ENJOY lunch with my ex-colleagues, and at night i will ENJOY a delightful church choir concert at vch!

ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY!