For a university student, it's work work work on Sundays. I used to give tuition in the morning, sometimes even go out with friends in the afternoon. Now, even with all the extra time not doing much else but work, there's just not enough time? And, it's now normal that I get ~3 hours maximum of rest on Sunday night because I have to do work.
I blame most of it on my inefficiency. I just don't understand why I take so long to formulate things, from deciding what to write in an essay, to figuring out what needs to be in a community space for arts. And I get nowhere in my thought process until the very last moment when any time after that, I would have not enough time to finish what I had started.
As it seems, it looks like I have some idea how to do my work from the start, except that I'm always so hesitant to put the ideas down on pen and paper (or MS Word, or in cardboard and sections and plans). I really don't get how people manage to mitigate complicated relationships in any essay topic or design issue and come out with a workable solution so seemingly quick.
For example, my friend (let's just call him T). T is uber-efficient. T is super quick at doing all his renderings, his drawings, his essays. Well, it helps a lot that he's already proficient at drawing and anything Autodesk or Adobe (makes me wish I had gone against my teacher's wishes and took Art in secondary school. It has obviously helped in some ways - as much as people like to say an education in art doesn't do a lot, if at all, for an education in architecture).
Give me half his skills, man. Then I wouldn't be sleeping so late.
As much as I envy him for being such a work horse, I like to think that he is a no-lifer (don't worry, he's my friend and he's aware that I think this way and we are nice to each other). HAHA. I'm quite sure that he has a real life, like having friends and all that, but so many things he does seem to indicate otherwise. Watching lots of anime, being preoccupied with work to the extent that most of what he talks about in school (with others) is WORK. People know him for doing a lot of WORK. WORK is how he's defined. It seems he'll do any WORK he's given and he'll probably derive sick pleasure from doing WORK!
No, no, I'm not for not doing any work. It's just that he gives the impression that all he does is work or anime (so geeky, right). I know very well that I'm wrong. He somehow has time to gym!?
What I'm slightly unhappy about is his frequent lapses in sensibility. Like, slightly irrational thinking (manifested in daily things and in work, sometimes). But in the end, I guess he's still a happy man for finishing all his work on time (what you don't know won't hurt you, in that way)! And my worrying about this and that and how everything contradicts each other tends to stop me from finishing up my work fast.
In contrast with T, another of my friend, L, is a workhorse but he seems to be much more 'normal'. In the sense that he still works works works, but is shrewder in getting work done. (Maybe I value intelligence a lot.)
Okay, I'm also to blame myself for playing quite a bit this semester. However, I maintain that finishing that game is the better choice. From past experiences, I tend not to replay games. So, if I finish what I had started during the recess week (a very bad idea - I had bought the game for my brother, which he didn't play! A little reward for surviving six weeks of school turned out to be an addiction that's to last for another 5 weeks), I won't be playing the game anymore. Today, I finally managed to complete the game and vanquish those demons. I hope the demons in me go away too. Thinking about it, the amount of time spent playing is about as long as the amount of tuition I gave in the same period of time exactly last year. So, by right I can handle it, right?
You know, the problem with me is that deep down inside, my over-confident subconscious tells me I have more than enough time to do work. I have an uncanny ability to waste the maximum amount of time doing everything else before I actually focus and zip through the entire work (and that, as it seems from the assignment grades I got from last year, gives me a not-very-good-but-decent B+). It also appears that my strength lies in exam cramming. I somehow have been getting good results for any study-able module (I really hope that is sustained).
But things are going to get harder! HOW?
I need more external pressure. You know, just a few weeks ago for the first time ever I actually felt nervous before a crit? In fact, during the week(s) leading up to that crit the very thought of the word 'design' or 'studio' or 'tutor' (or whatever keywords there are related to what I'm doing) gives me palpitations? So obviously, my subconscious has some idea of what lies ahead if I don't put in effort for design. BUT, why am I not pressured to work fast? I just don't get it.
Also, also... hopefully my life in general gets better as soon as possible (probably in three weeks from now). Like, do some exercise, behave normally, sleep well.
There are many things I'm glad for this semester, though. Meeting many new friends (mostly seniors), getting to know some of my batch mates more. I hope I gain much from this semester academically, or achievements-wise as well...
[this post is going to be used as analysis fodder for a module i'm taking in school. lol i can't escape work, can i.]
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