road block

argh!!! *crashbangbooooom!*

i'm beginning to face the reality that it might not be possible for me to transform my house into a showroom. there's simply TOO MUCH stuff to be thrown out of the house. how i wish i could post the photos up here to prove my point, but then you'd have a totally horrible impression of me after you see how messy my house is hohoho. let's just say, the clutter i could clear from my room ALONE is already between 6-10 plastic bags full, plus a box-ful of other items. probably will photograph the areas just before the paint job to record what it's like before haha.

another hit of reality: i'm facing this situation ALONE. come to think of it, if no one has bothered to clear their mess after this long - my father says he 'doesn't remember when he chucked the old computer into the unused room', well that's since 2003 and i remember because it's still in the house!? - i don't think they'll be helping much, if at all. my mom has long given up on doing a thorough cleanup of the place. and family members, namely mom and brother, have expressed resistance in recolouring the living room into a shade other than white or off-white, is that even a colour?!

hey brother, apparently you were the one who decided on painting our rooms light orange (i had no say in it 'cause i just didn't want a say then), against the (rather ugly) peppermint green-and-black all-in-one bed-wardrobe-table-cupboard installation, which is stuck in my room because the previous owner decided on it and nailed the damn thing in place such that my room is in the weirdest shape possible (you really should have a look at my room). damn, i should have been selfish too and not let you choose which room you wanted (lol).

good grief.

ok, also good i guess, i got a hell lot of storage space. the cupboards fill up the top quarter of a wall which is, to my estimate, 3 metres long or longer(NO KIDDING). if you think my room's big, well it isn't, because part of the 3 metres is an aisle owing to the really large master bedroom toilet cutting into the otherwise four-sided room. so basically, my room's an odd L-shape.

sometimes i wonder if i got any sense of style, haiz. i have few fab clothes (most are trash), i've never cared about how the house really looked till now.

oh haha. speaking of clothes, is there any other charity apart from salvation army that accepts second-hand garbs? i must clear the clothes i don't wear haha.

anyway, i am inching towards something (i hope). got a very limited paint catalogue from the diy shop at lot 1, borrowed 4 books on interior design and painting too.

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i stop and breathe in deeply. breathe out.

ok, at the very least, even if my makeover had failed, at least i should have been able to clear a good amount of trash from some of the rooms (: and thank goodness i have this blog which i somehow treat it both as a public and private one, to vent frustrations on or else i could just dieeee X_X