Sunday, December 12, 2010

how to demand responsibility and accountability from others?

if everyone could automatically (zhi-dong in mandarin) play their part and not leave their unfinished bits hanging in limbo while they holiday or work, i would be enjoying my holidays a little more and not get too stressed.

hello world, i'm the only fool who's been coming to school almost every day despite that it's the holidays. fine, granted - i've been playing with whatever time i have at home as well. but being in school for ~10 hours on weekdays and ~6 on weekends is crazy. where's my holidays?

i realise i take a long while to recharge. i need to get SICK of the holidays before i can be enthusiastic about doing work. what that really means is, i'm not gonna survive sem 2 because i'm still doing work and not playing till i start longing for academic torture. that's why i always 'die' mentally in term 3 of secondary and jc, because i've not had a proper break (what's a 'break' when there's holiday work to do?).

i think there's a problem with how i communicate with other people. somehow, i just cannot command enough respect to make others compelled to do their work or just do what i say. i feel like shouting some people down sometimes, but i always remember that i gotta see them (at least until i leave school) and it's not too pleasant if you're on either end. i can't really handle conflict, i guess.

i must enforce a 2-week no telephone/facebook/hotmail period for myself and i shall do a staycation somewhere. singapore or jb?

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