(my thoughts appear in my head in phrases, like this)
and i feel connected with them
wonder about what they went through
who they are now
the feeling is like sipping your drink while watching people walk by
from the comforts of a cafe
and you made it a point to dress nicely to meet a friend
if you're not too picky almost any acquaintance will do
if s\he has an interesting story to tell
or has a good presence
the feeling's quite fleety
comparing our lives with intertwining ribbons
they coiled, knotted, tangled, and along the way they separated
now we're touching each other
and we look back at the tangles and laugh about it
i've lost my tendency to make deep friendships
most friends come and go and i have accepted that
suddenly when an old acquaintance strikes a conversation and chord
you feel closer to him/her than when you knew him/her before
but nothing has changed
it's just that sharing each other's nostalgia and memories draws each other closer
as i slowly trudge through my life
i look back and see that i actually was floating through
floating alongside other people
people whose lives rub, knot, entangle with yours
and then someone lets go
that's how it is
so dumb to write about these at such a time. but maybe that's why i don't ask for much in people nowadays! [: everyone has a long life story of epic proportions behind them, as retarded or banal as they seem. the way they are now is a results of their epic story and maybe they're not always to blame for their slip-ups. so, i'll just give people the benefit of the doubt and...
there's a correlation between this and the kind of friends i have. is it...
... the more i expect of people, the more i interact with them, and the closer i get?
because, if i let people go, my imprint on other people's minds are less deep?
on a side note: i'm on the holding line for singapore airline customer service...
... for 31 minutes and counting >.> put my home phone to loudspeaker. would get cramps holding the receiver to the ear otherwise
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