Friday, February 27, 2009
complaints
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
AHHH CHANNEL U HAS A RERUN OF GOONG RIGHT NOW!
i'm so ecstatic!
today's episode was about chae-kyung (cai-jun) leaving the royal family, out of her free will, for a while in order to 'protect the royal family'. shin can't bear the pain of not having chae-kyung around and hugs her, and he could not control the tears that welled up in his eyes.
ahh so touching. i punched the air for joy at that moment!
goong...
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no... can i skip tuition this week? please please...
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how do you live life day by day: answer key
:D
first, you have to stop doing things that harm you and you don't like to do, e.g. overnight hanging out doing boliao things with madman-friends. (ok, i've only done that on very few occasions.)
secondly, free up as much time as possible! this is impossible but it can be done! i'm giving tuition and am earning enough to sustain my lifestyle, i've got a friend who's learning to invest in stocks (and he hopes to fund his university education by that). one way to free up time is to sleep early so that your morning is saved :D
thirdly, force yourself to do something healthy, whether you like it or not. for me it is to exercise. gotta do it even if i'm feeling tired. oftentimes the tiredness is a psychological effect and seems to disappear during workout. spend some time preparing for the future, too. like mugging for university.
in the meantime, come around to the idea that you don't have to prove to yourself you're the bestest in the world so there's nothing pressurising you to produce results. the free time is me time and me is going to enjoy me time! this is the most important step. else you'll hate every second of your life because it's wasted.
and the final! this one will make your life incredible!
be sensitive to your physical senses! your abilities of sight, hearing, taste, smell and touch give FANTASTIC experiences. do that while ignoring your mental processes, like your sense of time.
what then, do you explore with your senses?
anything! stop thinking, and just smell the fresh cold front of wind while admiring a sunny sky spotted with clouds. is the air scented with rain or cold mint?
or explore a new shopping centre, a new restaurant, a new park. i love dining in a restaurant that has glass panes which allow you to see the busy movement outside but without the noise. that isolation is like a time wrap. spend that time with a close friend or someone whom you'd like to know more (in yesterday's case it was my brother).
so this is what having a slow, happy life is all about...
thanks to one of yiwei's blog posts (the one with the video) which knocked me to my senses haha!
niiice.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
28th february 2009
ok, so what, right?
don't you find the mrt really awesome? the system is so tight, they come on schedule and the locations of the stations are rather well placed. plus there's so many stations around the island, with increasing interesting interiors, and parts of the journey are scenic too.
i think the lrt is fantastic as well. i haven't tried the punggol lrt yet (gasp!). but i loved the bukit panjang one when it opened - it's like a monorail ride and so, liberating not to have raised rails at the sides of the tracks to prevent people from falling off them (during emergency evacuation). the sengkang one is really really nice! if you take the route that doesn't ply through most of the hdb estates, that is. there's parts of the journey where you're rather close to forest and large empty spaces of land. very quiet looking and nice to just sit down and watch the outside move past. and for the train to stop at unopened stations, or to open its doors to underused stations (maybe a no-face from spirited away comes on board then?). ooooh exciting!!!
i have this love for mrt since i was young. i could remember the entire sequence of mrts on the north-south, east-west and the then branch line (from bukit batok to choa chu kang), and i still can, now! just that i haven't "mugged" the north east line nor the lrt stations. not fervently passionate for mrt now la.
oh, and i learnt how to read and write most of the red and green station names in chinese as well! it's pure coincidence that my chinese name is an mrt and estate name, though.
SO! i think i'm gonna troop down to pioneer/joo koon to have a look on opening day haha. i remember, though, that the exterior of these stations aren't very nice, but never mind i still want to go.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
normal rational thinking...
does anyone want to mug with me in the library? i need company else i will rot quickly. i'm not distracting in libraries, you can be assured - have mugged with chenjie for literally weeks months during prelim/a level season. and we miraculously did not disturb each other (proved).
jurong east/choa chu kang/woodlands/bras basah/any nice quiet branch will do!
ah, and suddenly i got as many tuition students, current or prospective, as the number of days in the week yay. income - urm i mean my allowance! - should be good enough to see me through my heavy splurging of late (birthday gifts, taxi fares, luxury/health care products) plus insurance, and will still have spare to save. and i will only be working about 12-13 hours per week. niice.
once i finally stop my urges to spend on snacks, books, music, clothes and facial products whenever i'm out, i think i'll save a hell lot XD
my friend told me he can spend as little as $50/month (excluding transport costs) when he was in poly!!! gosh, and i spent, like, $300 on average (including transport) when i was in jc. minus transport costs, it should be like, $160++ on everything else. on a separate note, i made my first claim at a transitlink office! an extra $1.55 was unfairly deducted from my card when i took the 170 service from johor bahru.
overall, my 'auntie' level is getting a bit higher! hey, it's not wrong to be an 'auntie' in that respect, you know. we youths living in singapore (note that i refrain from saying 'singaporeans')are too privileged to understand the value of $1.55. can you imagine, if you get $1.55 deducted every week? that's $6 per month, which is $72 per year! and if you check your shopping receipt from supermarkets you'd probably see some errors. if you paid less then never mind, but if you pay more...! hey, that's a lot of money saved per year. i can go eat an atas buffet dinner with $72, you know.
heard of the saying 'life begins at *insert a large number here*'? i always thought it's some sort of consolatory slogan. that people who wasted away their youth can re-experience exuberance at an older age.
but, if you think about it, the independent (less restrained by external factors) and therefore happier life really begins when you are an adult. although you got more burdens to handle (loans, bills, work stress), you got more spending power (food, party, luxury, company), which, if we can alter our mindset to break free from the stresses of life, makes life happier. it's completely commercial spin, those ideals and imageries of sweet sixteen-year-youngs living the high life in high school. so, totally (to be spoken in the american blonde tone) unrealistic. how many teens go on shopping sprees once a week with their fw3ns, own a convertible (well i do know of one who has the ability to do that but that's only one person!), or is the high school hunk or babe, replete with charm, who steals many kisses and more with an active (sexual) lifestyle, and lives it up admist the fame.
there's just about no way you can live that sort of life when you are 16 unless you're the absolutely lucky and talented - for example, former teen star utada hikaru, now an adult and still making waves ten years on! - or the totally screwed up: do you want to be a father/mother before you even start to earn money? well, i guess you can try to work your way up, like signing up for public embarrassment programmes such as singapore/american idol, getting reincarnated into a rich or talented family. but it'll be hard. and most of those who try will still be in the deep darkness of bleak normality. pfft.
i don't think trying to reach the top is a fruitless pursuit, either. working on achieving your goals, as high as it may be, reflects the relentless inner spirit that is worthy of praise. i suppose these struggles for success form our life experience that will serve us well.
anyway, more about why life is better when you're an adult. the body is physically mature when you're 25, after which it will degenerate, albeit very slowly, and you can save yourself from becoming a spotted raisin at 60 if you live very healthily (genes of course play a role but never mind that). that is to say, if you want to become a hulk, you're hulkiest and yummiest at your 20s and 30s!
recently, i browsed through my alma mater's revamped website. it featured the school's sports teams, from tennis to whatever you have to waterpolo (ooh, polo boys) very, heroically? again, the WOW factor comes into play. and i just watched television just now, channel 5 is looking for male 18 to 25-year-youngs to act in, guess what, a waterpolo-themed show.
(i have an affinity-hostility view towards everything waterpolo, you know why)
my soul, thin, frail and delicate, is battered and taunted by media [Ed: how drag queen-like dramaticism! NG NG!]
but really, when you are very young, being physically beautiful and able are two states to strive for. it's what being a youth stands for, right? being lively, happy, outgoing... and i missed that chance?
no, damn the media! i am only 21 this year and i will be happy being myself! i still have 9 full years of being a 20-something and many stars/starlets are in their 20s so there is still hope for me right? LOL.
can we celebrate being normal? and for trying not to be normal and fail at it? :)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
confession
1. replying to comments posted on facebook
2. conversing with people on msn. sometimes i find people, usually people find me!
3. using youtube to watch the same clips of utada hikaru and other musicians
4. searching for updates on utada hikaru (i have obsessive compulsive disorder i know)
5. compulsively recording my singing on microsoft sound recorder/audacity and playing it back immediately to critique :X
(singing later in the day is better sometimes - especially for amateurs - since your vocal cords are more stretched and warmed up after a day of talking.)
(hopefully i'll add a number 6, to watch online university lectures haha. thanks to a friend who just recommended i do that to stop myself from becoming an online degenerate.)
because! everyone's sleeping, so no one will listen to how i sing!
i'm TOTALLY a night person. although staying up so late (i think 10.30pm onwards is late) will always cause headaches and fatigue in the otherwise lovely and sunny morning.
i love mornings, too! but only when it comes with a cloudless sky and a cool breeze. morning is beautiful until it gets too hot and the wind disappears. when that happens i'll rather be in a swimming pool or indoors admiring the sky and the sun-bleached outdoors.
but... the night is very alluring. it's very cool, very dark, very quiet. perfect for your thoughts to run amok. if it rains, it's just as swell. very cooling, and the sound of rain becomes a soft aural stasis, like a blank drawing pad for sketching imaginations.
so urm, yeah. ok very random post just to confess my secret deeds after dusk.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
movie review: ponyo on the cliff by the sea

ok. i've been delaying this review for the longest time. but i must review this because i'm almost as fanatic about studio ghibli as about the japanese artiste with the letter 'u'. i own every anime movie release of studio ghibli minus ocean waves and my neighbors the yamadas.
random trivia: did you know that the retro american cartoon 'thundercats' was partly animated by the people who would later on form studio ghibli? i just found out while wiki-ing ghibli.
the movie's just great, if you understand the philosophy of being simple and vague. not that being vague is a bad thing, but do we really need to understand everything in our lives? i think that is what miyazaki films indirectly try to tell.
(spoilers ahead)
it's really simple, the story. goldfish with magical powers escapes father's supervision and explores the world above sea level, but gets into trouble. saved by a boy, she falls in love with him and used magic to become human, just to be with him. at the expense of the world, which became engulfed in a tsunami-turned-flood. of course the ending is happy, as with most ghibli films (obvious exception being graveyard of fireflies).
ponyo's a nice little fairy tale-like film. i think the creators have this knack of seeing the world and imagining things from a child's point of view. that in turn makes the movie look amusingly (detractors may say, 'childishly') senseless at times. like how ponyo was running on seawave-fishes while chasing after the boy. really very funny!
of course if you'd like something more thoughtful then this film isn't for you. too simple, i suppose, to some? when one develops an interest in intricate plotlines and subtle acting it will be hard to adapt to like simple tales such as ponyo (or inkheart. which i think is quite blah. although i think the scene/costume/character designs are quite splendid.) and one will be puzzled about some things in the film, like why wasn't the boy shocked to wake up to find the entire world - but his house because it's on a cliff - submerged in seawater? or why was ponyo's 'evil' father in human form? does that make ponyo half-human??
and the film happily subsumes all of your wondrous doubts and inquiries under the 'fantasy/magic/children' genres, which can slightly irritate the thinker in you.
other things about the film? well, it features the usual ghibli-style characters and themes. you know, the know-it-all granny (a la spirited away, princess mononoke), the nice evil guy - or is it the evil nice guy (howl's, cat returns). environmental issues make a cameo in this film though, thankfully it's only a cameo, since the film is light-hearted anyway.
oh, it's nice that the protaganist is a boy for a change! not seen one since, er. mononoke? that's at least 10 years ago.
but! the best part about the film is the hand drawn/coloured animation. no cgi! i recently bought a nice pictoral book on studio ghibli. it featured artwork from a few of the earlier works. so freaking cool, it had a 2-page illustrated process of how the artist would paint a scenery. he would first paint out the rough idea of the landscape, almost impressionistic in style. then, he would use fine brushes to etch out every little detail.
even light effects, such as streams of light through the forest canopy, or an object which glows, are totally painted! can you imagine how hard is it, to draw a beam of light in a certain colour which bleaches whatever you're supposed to see behind that beam of light!
ratings!
story: 2.5 or 3.5/5 (oddly a little too simplistic. doesn't make much sense to me sometimes. contrast with totoro, which is very fantastic yet explains every detail in the story subtly and convincingly. the score depends on what kind of movies you like to watch haha.)
music: 5/5 (orchestral music wonderfully complements the anime, for that artistic touch)
graphics: 4.5/5 (as usual, a gem. no one draws cartoons AND effects by hand anymore)
overall: 3 - 3.5/5 (the failure to explain so many things in the movie pulled down the score a lot!)
Sunday, February 08, 2009
3-part note
what have i done wrong... i asked them a question immediately after i just taught them, to make sure they know what is going on. that i'm very sure is the best way to learn, to be able to answer the question correctly means that he understands the concept. but whyyyyyyy. why still keep making the same mistake. why why why.
my other tuition-related gripe: correspondence with very/overly concerned parents. imagine having to answer the same questions to the same parent every week. the questions include "what strategies you have to teach my son in this subject?" and "what do you think my son lacks?". as if explaining it once isn't enough. the uber-kiasu dude keeps buying more assessment, even though i already said he has bought enough for the time being. is my job of answering his torrent of questions then, to pacify and reassure that i'm the miracle tutor they need?
(oh, not to mention, i had to answer in MANDARIN!!!! shit. i can do conversational mandarin, but just not so good in describing my entire vocabulary of teaching methods in infinite ways because i've been asked infinite times. and why is it that some of my friends have the impression that i'm good at mandarin!?)
anyway, the poor boy had no choice but to listen to the entire conversation (and listen to my shitty mandarin), because the parents sat in during the tuition and just popped the question like that.
sometimes, life is just, well, sad *shrugs*
2. i don't know if anyone has thought about this. but we were actually the MOST PRODUCTIVE in school! don't you think so? cramming so much information in such short time, and still acing tests? and now what am i doing. plodding away at the speed of a buffalo chained to a ploughing machine. i've barely learnt ANYTHING in the past three months! someone save my wretched soul.
well, that is if i value my time according to how much i've used it for learning, i'm totally screwed up. haha. will my life after the days of school be this unproductive? *shudders*
3. yay people turned up yesterday for a gathering at my place (:
proof:

missing: pong, urh i meant lionel XD (he went home early with a box containing all of my JC physics/maths notes!)

there was food (thanks to mom!)

for some reason dq the Joker had to ask where's my room and the entire jin-gang trooped down to scrutinise my private life. isn't the colour of the room quite nice? though i think the adjacent walls have to be in some other colour. so weird leh, 2 walls joined by the same bright colour.

this karaoke-king promptly pounced on the mics after my dad's (female) students left. lol!
don't worry my dear chorale-mates/classmates/school friends/other random army friends. some nice gathering for you all is currently in the 'construction process' (in my mind).
yay!
and here's another gripe! why do people leave their attendance status hanging in midair? i think it's so impolite. if you're not coming, say so, man. you won't hurt my feelings if you say "no" nicely (provided there's a reason behind not coming), but if you say something like "maybe" it swings to "no i'm not coming" but i can't take it as a "no" because "maybe" is "maybe".
but this "maybe" quite often means (entirely or part thereof): "i don't want to come because i don't feel like i want to see that group of people including you. so i'm not making any efforts to mark this date on my calendar, or make arrangements for it. but because we were once/are friends i'd feel bad if i boycott the event so please understand my situation". it's really like that.
saying "maybe" is therefore, equivalent to not replying to my sms-es/msn convos at all :(
and i really really really really really really do want to see all of you again. blah.
whyyyyyyyy.
i guess those organising their massive 21st feel the same way as i do? but on a grander or smaller scale i'm not sure. too many people invited can either mean you the accumulated amount of sadness from missing each absentee is either a lot more or a lot less.
i think too much, don't i...
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
of interest
singapore is going to add something exciting to its architectural scene.
if you'd click on the link above. it looks like a ship with a carapace on top, mounted onto the ground like an exhibit when viewed from its length (lol). or this exciting dynamic layered stack from the side.
this 54000 square-metre singapore civic & cultural centre building is to house entertainment, lifestyle and retail outlets for the general public. it's also to have a large outdoor canopy for outdoor events, and a whopping 5000+ seater auditorium (that's larger than ucc) for musicals, concerts or any large scale events.
oh, how exciting. and it's to be at one-north (presumably near the one-north mrt station?), near enough to my place.
Monday, February 02, 2009
draft of wind
the fog is slowly swept away by a fresh breeze... mmm...
it's ok to be a normal, average, underachieving person, a man in the crowd. because (almost) everyone else is just as lazy and unspectacular too. ok that isn't too true but i like to think of it that way :S
and maybe if i just bury myself doing what i HAVE to do namely photoshop/autocad/sketchup, drawing, archi and piano from now onwards i might just be proficient in them by the time school term starts! that sounds terribly exciting.
another note: birthday party season has officially kicked off and is in full swing, though i got a feeling i'll sizzle out completely before my turn even comes. my finances... bawls. and i want to rant about my work here but not too nice lah. haiz.
another note: the fugly hole in the rough exterior of my wall got fixed by simply painting over it in the same colour. so as long as no one observes the wall too closely the hole is invisible hohoho.