Tuesday, December 30, 2008

a plunge into deep waters

i'm SO ENVIOUS of people who find themselves in the right company all the time. they've got great friends and cousins who share similar interests. like how guys always find football kakis to play with or a best friend to call at random times, and how girls just spend quality time with each other.

man, sometimes i feel so lonesome 'cause my network (of people i know) isn't very tight, or accessible. i really wish i have cousins of my age and who're living a life similar to mine, then there would be so much to do! or have a close relation with my sibling and have more siblings. so sweet to see some of my friends' families being rather close, especially between my friends and their brothers and sisters.

and then, when i see couples doing PDA, i want to be that guy snogging the girl (lol). they've found their happiness! so lucky of them.

all i want is a BFF (best friend forever). he/she will make my life a perpetual sunshiny day. but it's impossible to have a bff. for some reason, one day there'll be nothing left to be happy about having each other as a bff. it seriously sucks when your bff parts abruptly, when you never wanted it to. and it takes too long to get over an ex-bff. waaaah.

no, add 'a fantastic body' to my never-will-be-fulfilled-because-i'm-too-lazy wishlist. i watched part of the sex and the city movie, and WOW THE BRIEF SEX SCENES ARE HOT! how odd, that although having a totally taut and buffed body (probably) doesn't improve the physical pleasure by much - i mean, flabby people enjoy sex just as much right? - just imagining that you are "the ownage" boosts your libido quite a bit, uh huh.

oh, and yesterday i went swimming at 4pm (least packed time, since workers have yet to knock off). and to my amazement, some of the old fogeys are SO TONED AND BUFF and big in all the right areas. uh huh uh huh... if i'm as muscled as them when i'm their age i must say my life has been pretty good.

in other words, my attempt at having the simple, contented life is failing as of now :(

it's too irresistable to entertain depressing thoughts and not let go of them by looking at the bright sunny sky outside my window. i really love to enjoy the weather, but thinking about things are so much more indulge-worthy.

i do hope my sine-curve pattern of happiness and sadness is a phase of teenhood. else it'll be hard to be happy in the long term haha.

Monday, December 29, 2008

post xmas parties



played on the wii at huimin's place through the night...



those who survived through the night.



lol xixun your face damn funny can.



ok, at kevin's place playing rock band...

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but for some reason, i feel so lonely now. haha :(

Thursday, December 25, 2008

MERRY CHRISTMAS



this is what christmas is all about... yes...

"did you know your body..." grossology documentary

did you know:

your ear can store earwax up till 1cm large!?

well, i didn't know that, until a few days ago!

wonderful self discovery (lol)

basically, to K.I.S.S, my hearing in my left ear got pretty muffled, and i tried to scratch whatever's blocking my ear to no avail. and then, i tried to use water to flush it out. you got to use a syringe (without the needle!) and just pour water into the ear repeatedly.

and then, ta-da! out came the now-foreign particle which caused disharmony in self!

OMG A (NEARLY) 1CM-BIG EARWAX!?

i'm amazed at what my body can do!

but now, after all the attempts at getting that dissonance out, i got a earache, probably an infection :'(

oh yea, MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone!

Monday, December 22, 2008

fuzzy memories of olden days, happy golden days...

the current batch of raffles chorale j2s were GOOD! (i'm a j4 this yr, btw)



the solos by both the guys and girls were outstanding! really, really wonderful voices.

they even did a comedic re-enactment of mummy kissing santa claus, weaved into song! so cute!

my fw3nZ (:



x'mas is here... should exercise a bit more to counter the up-sized meals i'm probably to have in the following days.

ah, today i realised i may face the prospect of being unemployed until chinese new year or even later. that means no spending power ): on the bright side, i'm totally free to do what i think i really ought to do :D

i banked in some cash and my first pay cheque today, and realised i blew a lot of money this month! i've no idea how. possibly on transport (i think i cabbed a few times), food (ate out at least 5 days a week), books (i spent a lot at kinokuniya@bugis one day), and entertainment stuff. quite disgusting, how fast the digits fly away from the bank account book, haha.

oh, and to celebrate jeanette aw being mediacorp's next ah jie (they say she'll take fann wong's place), here's a reprise of the drawing i drew of her! lol.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

vow: i will try my best not have a night life (lol)

omg, so expensive leh! just 5 hours of kbox sets you back THAT MUCH!!

ok, so i'm happier nowadays (all of a sudden). though there are missing parts of my life, things will be fixed along the way so i'm still being happy :D

i have a book fetish, i realise. i haven't read most of the books i bought! maybe they will keep me company from the day i retire lol. that's a lot to read in 10, 20 years...

my christmas wish should really be, to have 10 more years of youth so that i can do so much more with it! haha... now that's quite a negative thought, actually. no, i must ENJOY TODAY.

wow, it' s so breezy and sunny outside... off to lunch!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

works in progress

it is day 2 since i told myself to ENJOY the moment...

so far, i've been in a pleasant mood! :D

after the choir concert yesterday, i chatted with xixun and liansheng somewhere along the quay near raffles place =) eh, the quay area is really really breezy at night! would be cool if i could sleep on the walkway next to the river, under the starrrrs.

and, i have this fantastic business idea! we can have a singapore river hotel, and the 'rooms' are actually boats on the singapore river! then, customers who don't know how to operate a boat can opt to anchor the boat somewhere for the night, whereas those who can steer can be allowed to drive it around :D:D

can enjoy the sights and sounds and smells along the singapore river!

perfectly romantic~

yesterday was also stage one of my operation cleanup. tidied up the living room table, piano top and the kitchen table (esp. things that belong to me).

today: stage two (incomplete). - my bedroom D: very hard to clear, i accumulate rubbish very very fast! and i tell you, i have enough books to fill a box 50x30x60cm large!!! no, it doesn't include my sec sch/jc notes and books, of which i kept most of them O_o geez, i'm spending a hefty sum on books... i think i need to buy a bookshelf for my books...

Thursday, December 18, 2008

my "xuantasy"

http://blog.sina.com.cn/xuantasy

lol... hm stumbled on this blog while reading an online forum :D so funny, since when was i this ga-ga over celebrities (apart from hikki)...

oh i realised something about myself, very surprising this hasn't crossed my mind properly before till now! i'm putting too much pressure on myself to excel in everything possible, that i'm not enjoying my life at all...

everything! from my image, my friendships, my health, my time management...

so i (finally) understand what people mean when they say "singaporean students are overly pressurised to achieve". can you imagine, i never thought of it this way? i always think i'm lacking of so many things: perserverence, manliness (er, lol?), attractiveness, cool attitude etc.

ahhhh. what's wrong with me ah. i shouldn't keep thinking of being "the best i can be", should i?

and then when people praise me for whatever i'm good at, i would think about myself holistically and conclude i'm still "not there yet". yet, how i wish i could live the life of so many of my friends. many of them (seem) more content with their lives than i am with my own lol.

SO!

from now on, i will STOP thinking about what i'm going to achieve with my short life, and focus on what i WANT TO DO, because I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!!!!

tomorrow, here's my plan!

ENJOY myself while running or swimming (depends on the weather), then i might go out to ENJOY lunch with my ex-colleagues, and at night i will ENJOY a delightful church choir concert at vch!

ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY!

new colours!

goodness, it's so hard to come up with this colour scheme.

快乐的巅峰。。。

http://ajollyaffair.wordpress.com/

白薇秀的中文博客!

她对中文的掌握相当好耶!只是口才方面差了一些(你曾看过她接受访问的录影片段吗)。欧萱华语的基础似乎比白薇秀好一点,不过她的口腔实在太“红毛派”,听起来不顺耳。。。

哈。(好像曾经有说过)我在此用中文是为了练习自己的中文表达能力(辛苦!我很不喜欢用输入汉语拼音的方式打字)。

phew. so hard to type chinese!!! and i take a few seconds to construct a sentence nicely before i type it out! i must use chinese more often! and not just to order food at hawker centres...

but it's quite difficult to practise it in singapore, where quite a lot of people (the younger generation) don't speak standard mandarin. also, i realise that the chinese vocabulary is less extensive in certain areas (in areas of science and technology), or is so rarely used even by native mandarin speakers, they sometimes resort to describing what they're trying to say using very common everyday language. it doesn't help at all either that the amount of chinese we're learning in school is SO LIMITED! i think it may help if we learn one more subject in the chinese language.

we're in the PERFECT position to play a huge role in transnational businesses between china/taiwan and the rest of the (english-speaking) world! but quite a good portion of us can't really express ourselves decently (not in a juvenile manner, i mean mature) in chinese/mandarin, let alone try to talk business in mandarin! we should take advantage of our bilingual ability and conquer china and the world haha! (well that's what i realised when i almost got the free trip to europe as someone's translator).

anyway, last day of internship... glad that i learnt LOTS through it. the people there were really nice and friendly, too! now, i need to reorganise my short term plan for the next few weeks :/ quite a handful haha!

first, must exercise! i read from somewhere that girls like men with a shoulder-waist circumference (or is it length?) ratio of about 1.6! that's the mystical golden ratio! so my aim now is to achieve that ratio in those parts of my body (and hopefully my entire body is the embodiment of the golden ratio)!!!

shagged out X_X

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

awesome

http://circusofjoy.wordpress.com/

joanne peh's blog!

sophisticated mind!!!

NICE!!!

命苦!

人生如此刻薄。

偏要做他的朋友,他却不理睬。不要某个人太接近你,他却偏缠着!

如那些乱把陌生人加进自己的facebook联络单(其实有很多陌生人向做我的facebook网友,我只“加”那些长得漂亮的女生哈哈哈!咳,我们都是浅薄的人。。。 ),或那些你只想把他们当着“嗨拜”朋友(“hi-bye” friends)而已的人却一直联络你,跟你无聊闲谈。

腻死人啦!!!

muhhhhr............................................. D:

Monday, December 15, 2008

as fate would have it, it seems i DID forget to accept NUS's offer. or their application system screwed up along the way (not likely), or my internet connection went psychotic when i tried confirming the application online (likely)

ok, hopefully i get reinstated! else, must reapply D: tuition costs up 10% for s'pore prs!!! geez.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

what i've been up to this weekend...

not too often that i get so much excitement in my life. here we go:

From 13 to 14 Dec 2008

went to my friend's architecture exhibition at bras basah complex, right after the buffet lunch with zulu plt 4 04/08 batch. i realise i need to specify the exact batch, because i know there's people from at least 3 batches who still read my blog! haha. anyway, the exhibition presents works done by architecture students who formed a studio (tutorial group, if you would), bras basah complex 4th floor (to the right of basheer bookstore - beside the escalator). go see! it's around next week or so only...

From 13 to 14 Dec 2008
more fw3nZ...

From 13 to 14 Dec 2008
so sweet sia...

From 13 to 14 Dec 2008

haha... today (sunday) we carolled at st andrew's community hospital. it's a non-profit voluntary welfare organisation, just next to changi general hospital. anyway, we sang 4 wards x 5 floors = 20 times, once per ward! that's about, 40 songs??? (well we had to repeat our songs)

really very shagged by the 2nd floor that we sang at lol!

From 13 to 14 Dec 2008
so shagged our brains got fried (above)

From 13 to 14 Dec 2008

the crazy bunch (actually crazy only applies to the girls + wenjun)

ah, the next week is here! *breathes*

it'll be another tiring but exciting week! got dance lesson tomorrow (yes you're stifling your laugh, i know it!) and then there's chorale performances at esplanade, and more outings and stuff... pantpantpant...

the last i see of bmt

From The Last I See of BMT
tekong ferry terminal!

From The Last I See of BMT
the bullshit poster that makes every enlistee emo-angry!

From The Last I See of BMT
the 1st building that greets visitors

From The Last I See of BMT
redhuwan/issac

From The Last I See of BMT
me/more people

From The Last I See of BMT
capt zulu

From The Last I See of BMT
zulu cont sgt mj!

From The Last I See of BMT
>:( gary when will i get a proper photo of you.

From The Last I See of BMT
ah ride bicycle somemore la :P

From The Last I See of BMT

zulu plt 4 04/08 batch yay. too bad i ord + ord mood too soon. i think we would have a much more memorable time together then (can ask my previous batches ahaha)!

keep in touch ah (i.e. you add me on facebook/msn)...

i almost got kicked out of school...

... because i didn't receive the matriculation letter!!!

:@

ORD NSFs are supposed to reconfirm that they'll be enrolling, and they were notified via mail. and in the mail is, apparently, a lot of information. the deadline for the confirmation is just tomorrow... AND I JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT IT YESTERDAY!

wah lau...

Saturday, December 06, 2008

fluff 花絮

as you can see i kind of like the chinese language (a far cry from my primary school days).

anyway, had carolling practice today!!! haven't sang in a group for ages already! really happy that i'm restarting now...

rather sad, though, that a lot of my life is fluff. i need something more permanent and will be with me forever... what would that be?

Friday, December 05, 2008

i read it in the news!

(in reference to the today's print of the straits times life! section)

(yea, i know both of them personally in some ways)

it's so weird, viewing your friends from the perspective of the media. not that i detected any obvious slants or non-facts from the article, but the very mention of a person in the press seems to immediately elevate or degrade his/her status, don't you think? i mean, if he/she's not news-worthy and therefore unworthy he/she won't be reported on mass media, right?

in this case, it's obviously elevation. pretty cool. almost as cool as being a psc scholar, or the kid who got perfect grades for his/her o levels. and then you would cut up and laminated the article with your name and smiley face in it and hang it up somewhere in your bedroom. haha so sweet.

the yearning to be 'famous' is shared by many people, i suppose? by the quotation marks i mean, even if it's just for a 3 second commercial or a calefare. to be watched and (potentially?) wanted by as many people as possible, that's celebrity status!

i think it's the feeling of worthiness that makes popularity so attractive, true right? somehow you get a lot of concern pouring from people whom you don't know, but you have shared part of your life with them and they depend on you for something, like emotional support, entertainment, outlet for lust etc.

speaking of stars, i hope jeanette aw's character in little nyonya will continue to be as fiesty but get into less trouble erps. independent i like. mm!

and utada hikaru appeared in my paper today. i was so happy, until i read the content. so worried, i hope she isn't sick or anything ):

sometimes, you don't need to communicate in person to the other party to like him/her. their image has been extrapolated by our wonderful imagination and we picture him/her to be a certain way, and it's usually in some sort of stereotype. which makes news about them all the more interesting and juicy! whenever they do something that adds credibility to their image, that's awesome. when they do something naughty, that's even more awesome (only when they're perceived to be 'bad').

and i guess that's how i perceive jeanette aw and utada hikaru. but, judging from interviews on them and their performances on stage or on screen, they're really the persons i make them out to be... *dreams*

Thursday, December 04, 2008

i knew i was right...

i read it in the news!

jeanette aw's nominated for best actress (for rhythm of life 变奏曲) in the asian television awards!

i've been her fan ever since episode 1 of holland v! i (almost) only buy issues of i-weekly i周刊 that has her in it! sad that i didn't watch all the shows she acted in. especially in the past two years, because of ns (damn). and this year is her bumper year, with FOUR serials woahh... including two high key ones (rhythm of life and little nyonya)

i knew there's something about her...

*sniff sniff* :')

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

MY FIRST FORMAL DANCE LESSON!

WOW CAN YOU BELIEVE IT I'M ACTUALLY LEARNING HOW TO DANCE?

imagine me dancing. go ahead, laugh...

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ok, now that you have stopped laughing...

it's really fun, dancing. oh, i'm learning street jazz (don't ask me why i chose it) every monday at a dance studio in funan digital life mall. just started my first lesson yesterday.

AND I DIDN'T THINK IT'LL BE THIS TOUGH! i mean, it's so easy to learn those line dance steps. but this street jazz is a whole different thing. proper dance lessons apparently begins with a killer 1/2 hr warm up session. the infinite crunches and hardcore phantom chairs could make me die! as terrific as a tekan session from your hated sergeant. plus, the psychomotor-challenging stretches which demands your joints and ends of limbs are in that particular position. like, your left leg is straightened but your right leg isn't, and the feet are pointed to the left or to the front, body faces the right etc...

and it's only my first lesson!!!

ok, at least i got the basic street jazz walk thing 60% correct. what is it called, ah, i forgot. then, just as i began to get used to the funny crabwalk, the instructor added more dance steps AHHH! 'cause there's a couple of other students who are slightly more advanced than us (by a couple of lessons i think, and who have dance background too) so she had to take care of them as well.

wah lau, i still can't do the turnaround step. so funny haha. the session was so interesting and fun partly 'cause the "three musketeers" (myself and two other friends) kept messing up the steps.

LOL.

oh, and today, i ran for literally a whole hour! YAY! i've decided to do (have i said this before?) exercises every day, first thing once i return from work. hopefully my fitness can improve and perhaps be even better than what i was during my (memorable) army daze.

and i pray i can finish learning photoshop and autocad viz in the following two weeks 'cause i know i don't have the determination to learn it at home haha =X